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Wednesday May 25, 2005

For all my complaining about how busy work and life is at the moment I’m enjoying it. I enjoy the stress, the long hours at work, the tumultuous love saga’s, the family drama’s.

If I didn’t have this I’d be a mess.

A lot has gone on in the last few months – death, break ups, family moving interstate, redundancies, friendship’s ending etc etc. For a while there I thought I was losing it, the grief was something I’d never experienced before and I had no idea how to handle it. I don’t think you’re supposed to handle it, once I got my head around that it got slightly easier.

I miss my boys, as dysfunctional as it’s been with them, I enjoyed their company, the contact. I like the honesty of male friendships that you don’t get with girlfriends. Plus the willing dates to see Star Wars and Bruce Willis movies. I’m angry at the rejection boy from the previous post. But after multiple girl chats with friends they’ve convinced me the anger is a good sign, and hey, anger is infinitely better than the mopey, “I just miss him, why doesn’t he like me?” The Smith’s listening stage right?

My previous blog has been shut down, a virus on my pc resulted in one of our IT guys looking at my pc and finding it’s address. Considering I’d only been updating it from work and I’ve had it for the last 2 and a half years it’s a miracle it took that long, especially since I work in IT myself. So unless I buy myself a laptop for home this is my new baby.

Tomorrow is an official mooch day. I’m tired and run down and The Eye Twitch is back (and yes it deserves capitals, I’ve had it since my senior year of school, and it just reminds me that, “yes Lucy darling you are a little stressed.”)So I’ll be staying at home and my total physical exertion tomorrow will be watching Oprah and “Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind” and trying not to sob, hell I might get dressed out of my pyjamas.

Highly doubtful of course, but you never know.

I’m still at work, it’s been a long day but I’ve been busy in meetings (finally getting involved in IT projects, this pleases me no end, I think most IT technicians want to be doing project management, or you know maybe I just want to wear suits a lot and have a lot of meetings.) For now I have “Shoplifters of the World Unite” playing on my pc (It’s not a angsty Smith’s moment I promise) and I’ve kicked off the heels and am enjoying in the delicousness of a quiet office.

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